Monday, March 14, 2011

how about you?


Many of you know because of my unstable internet here and the time difference made communicating a little difficult. With that reason, blogging should be the way to go to learn about what's going on with me. So, I am sorry that I have been gone from the blogging world, making you feel like you don't know anything about me over here. The truth is, there hasn't been much going on really, just mundane life stuff. ;) But it could be quite interesting sometimes. Other times over these few months, I was very stressed and tried hard to deal with the feelings I have being away from home, the new challenges of learning to become a working adult....I  can say now that I have learned a lot again about relationships with coworkers and friends and reassured what kind of person I am. I am really learning to say no to things, make compromises and still speak the truth if possible. Also, I am trying hard not to be the person to say the last words. But for reals, I thought I would explode and just scream. That's how I felt. So I hid in my apartment and got lots cleaning done. 

If I have written some blogs, I probably would have written some really angry and frustrated posts you wouldn't want to read about anyways. I have taken lots of pictures though. I realized bringing my camera out to take pictures encourages me to go on walks, even when it's cold and windy out. So I have a few pictures to show you. Again, I apologize that sometimes it seems like I am invisible, enjoy the posts coming these few weeks. But I gotta warn you sometimes my life is just including going grocery shopping after work, catching a few tv shows in a foreign language, and somehow doing laundry and ironing work clothes every weekend, if it is not laundry, it is sweeping the tatami floor. While my coworkers go out to drink. But once in awhile, I would watch a really good movie, or get really lucky and get some nice photos. 

Last but not least, I want to leave you with some questions my dad from america asked me one time over google chat. He asked me how was work, and commented on how boring my life was and I don't really get to hangout with anyone. ;) I commented about the long hours and the dedication people have over here....then he asked, 
"How about you?
Do you think you can live like that after seeing the rest of the world? Do you expect to have more out of life?" 
I didn't have enough time to answer him or to think how I should answer. And I still don't have the answers to those important questions while many many people have continue asking THE question.
 "So what do you do after this?"
and I am pretty sure I have been asked about that since my first year of college. I have been thinking so much that Becky's boys are already here. A lot can happen in three months.

I know each person has their reasonings, but I don't think being too selfish all the time is okay. I don't think purposely making the other person feel less important is okay. I am talking about simple daily stuff. And I might not be the brightest or know every topic you know, but I don't laugh at you when you don't know something. I understand no one is perfect and I should take it easy and forgive. Yes. Ok. Got Over it.